Karmakazi - Someone who does something so wrong, it could potential ruin all their good Karma in the next life.
I think I did it, I think I lived up to the name. I should be reborn as a roach.
Why in the past few weeks Karmakazi has gone up in flames and been going to hell.
This is what happened in chronological order and full of my thoughts and opinions.
In the beginning, I never wanted to be leader.
I knew it meant dedication to the guild, devoting time and energy to it.
Being there constantly to resolve problems and issues. Helping out guild members.
And for the past three months, I did that.
I tried to make a guild full of fun, talkative, and active players because I knew there was noway I could make an Elitist faction because I'm not an end-game level player and it would be hypocritical if I did.
While all of this, I've had people in and out. I've asked some of them why did they leave.
Many answered because nobody ever helps except for a few, because they come in and say hi and nobody answers, and because there is only low levels and nobody that could help them.
About three weeks ago, around the ninth of October.
Karmakazi was beginning to look like a faction of considerable strength.
**Note the word considerable, it was only a faction that could be considered as a potential power.**
At this point I needed a break and I decided to start taking advantage of my errands to Miami to go to my cousins' house and have fun. To have a "life" for a change. I guess I shouldn't have done this.
Karmakazi began to lose members. Heres just a few of the top of the list.
NOTE: Levels upon leaving.
xxBeboxx (78): Why? Appearently, he just didnt like the guild and left without a word; he wanted to join some Elite faction.
AngelaRose (56): Why? Bebo's wife. I may have misspelled her name. She just followed him.
LexiaAnn (78): Why? Just following her friend Bebo.
SynthianGate (89): Why? He came in, came out. No big deal. Might have misspelled name.
Endel (74): Why? Came in, didnt like it, left.
Rip_Tide (67): Why? Came in, tested out the faction but did not like.
Napolian (72): Why? He came in, helped a bit, left to join an Elite faction. Understandable.
Dust_to_Dust (94) Why? A helpful cleric, although maybe for his own benefit. Has anger issues. Dont trust too much.
Dagorak (73): Why? Dust_to_Dust's alt bm.
SageAmitt (83): Why? Came in, offered help, nobody took his help, he left.
MrPhantomSin (62): Why? He was demoted, by me. He didnt wait for an answer and left. I had my reason.
Mizz_Cookie (63): Why? Almost nobody would help her and the guild almost never answered her "hi"s.
Smoochi (77): Why? She went inactive, then suddenly she logged in, resigned, and left.
Tsuki_K (80): Why? She has long planned to leave and join an Elite faction. And an uncomprehendable and unresolvable issue with a newer member, RainboWonder, led her to reign Director and leave faction faster.
RainboWonder (57): Why? Tsuki_K got into the faction with an alt, and due to the issue among her and Tsuki, she left and began her own faction.
I also soon realized that two other prominent members would be leaving soon.
KamakaziEdge (76) and KamaazkiSin (76)
So with so many of the higher level members leaving, I decided I'd "Close" the faction.
This would expel everyone active, I'd boot the rest of the inactives, and I'd have all my time to my personal leveling.
I was going to restart the faction when I was near level 100 and make it Elitist.
During the time I was trying my idea, alot of other members left. Some have come back.
Some members left and joined RainboWonder's faction.
But two days into my idea, guild members convince me to not let the faction close.
So I give DG_Cloe leadership. Her choice for Director was KamakaziEdge.
Im not too sure what happened during that one short day, but Karmakazi ended up losing.
xGothFairyx (71) Narotu (70) ___KIRA___ (39). Narotu's alt. and about 50 other members, mostly -20.
So I tried to get back lead from Cloe, she obliged.
So then came my idea on how to get back members that had been lost and alleviate me of the position of leader.
I considered handing RainboWonder leadership for a full merger of her guild into Karmakazi, thus getting back lost members and leaving Karmakazi with a good and competent leader that actually has experience and clear plan.
Hostility against this idea caused further losses.
Eventually there was nobody left to say no or yes. There was almost nobody active that spoke out.
I figured, why not just give it already, there's nobody here left anyways. And so I did.
Theres almost nothing left of the original Karmakazi members now anyways.
Trust me, if I had a time machine, I'd go back and not have done certain things and not have let all this happen. But its too late now.
Of course, I'm the biggest blame in all this.
But to be honest, its not all me. I would like to point fingers.
Including inactive officers and some disloyal too.
A faction of almost 100 who only 8 members cooperated with guild upgrades.
A faction of almost 200 whose activity was about 1/10 at best.
A faction full of members who did not respond or cooperate or help.
I want to apologize to everyone.
And especially DG_Cloe, you were right Cloe, you were right all along.
Akyros, because you've been an overly devoted member from the beginning and I ruined the guild for you.
Rainbow and Tsuki, for pointing you two out. ^^ Sorry.
It is the great tragedy of all guilds, factions, clans, unions. That ultimately they all die and fall apart.
So if there's any lesson to learn from all this, its dont get too attached to guilds.
Well...maybe now I'll go back to that other game I was playing before this and rejoin that clan I abandoned.
*hugs* 
